Too Tired For Something Interesting

*sigh*

I miss Kuma-kun, and I'm all worried about him because he's all stressed out and stuff.

Last night some girl called me a misogynist because I said that I'm often disappointed in the behaviour of my own gender for acting like floozies.

But honestly so many women throughout history have gone through Hell for girls these days to have their heads stuck up their asses.

But being logical and straightforward are important things in my world.

I got really fired up and the debate lasted for hours...

We never agreed, so we parted ways in a polite manner.

I almost used the word copacetic, but I'm laughing too hard...

I won't explain why.

I just bought nail polish remover, but I'm not sure what I did with it...so there's little purple flakes everywhere.

I don't even know what I wanted to write about...

The world isn't prepared for my awesomeness.

I can't quit sneezing.....

I have this really long, elaborate, complicated plan in order to make some sense of my life.

But I'm starting to feel more like myself, whoever that is.

Je rigole!

Although truthfully I just hate winter, every year I go through this ridiculous depression and it lasts from September all the way through January.

Like fucking clockwork.

A psychiatrist told me once that I should surround myself with people that I like and do things that I love.

I wonder if that would help at all....

Either way, my depression for the year is finally pretty much over.

Thank the Nine that it's almost Spring.

If you're wondering, I try to fit in Skyrim references everywhere I possibly can.

I'm thinking that I'll actually celebrate Beltaine, Ostara, and Nouruz this year; because those are my favorite holidays, of course with the exception of Samhain.

It's funny that my religious tendencies are a bizarre mix of Zoroastrian and Wiccan, with a tiny bit of traditional Native American.

But spirituality is what it is without all the bullshit labels of conventional religion.

And Zoroastrianism runs deep in my veins, since my bloodline is literally ancient.

Mister J says that's why I'm sensitive to energies...

Oh, anyhow, back to Beltaine and Nouruz.....

I really would love to go up to LA/Irvine for Nouruz, because how amazing would that be?

And I'm going to set up the little table with the coins and eggs and fish...I love Persian traditions, there's so much symbolism.

I'll make salmon and Sabzi Polo...

I'm so excited!

And for Beltaine I'm sure I could find a local celebration, although they're unlikely to have naked fire dancing.

Which is why I would love to see Beltaine in the UK.

I lost my altar candles when I moved a few years ago, I was so depressed about it that I stopped celebrating holidays altogether.

Really after all that chaos the universe misplaced tons of my stuff, but I've learned that you have to let go of things.

Today I'm in a good mood, I'm not sure why...

I woke up with The Cure stuck in my head and I've been cuddling with Mer all day.

I'm not even sure what I'm talking about anymore...

I need to wash my car at some point, and Mister J is going to bring me mechanic gloves.

So I'm really excited about that.

What else?

I've been thinking about getting into cosplay, but I never go to conventions...so maybe?

We'll see how that idea goes.

My brain is so all over the place that I'll have moved on to something else before this is even a reality.

That's just how I am, I get around to things in my own time.