Well, we're not doing that either, because I'm weird about it.
Actually I was fine until Mister J hinted that I'm coming off like a whore...well, no, I wasn't completely fine.
I was dealing with my issues though, now I'm back at the beginning of fucked.
This makes me question why I'm delving into my personal life over the Internet.
Why do I feel so bad about all this?
I never feel guilty about anything...
That's not always true.
But most of the time....
It's because I actually care about this guy, that's why I feel like crap for upsetting him.
Mystery solved.
Somebody should talk some sense into me, I've turned into someone that I don't wanna be.
I suppose I could change that myself, go back to being normal.
Of course normal is a relative term, I mean normal for me.
That would be not paranoid over a guy...
Yeah, okay, I think I've exhausted all my crazy.
It's still kinda depressing that every guy I know, except the one I want, is talking to me.
I give up...
Video games.
That's my solution, because that solves everything.
Is it weird that I still listen to Vampire Weekend?
Sshhh, don't tell anyone.
Too bad arson is illegal...
I'm kidding, or am I?
Now why would I say a thing like that?
Other than the fact that my brain is in rebellion, today was good.
I really do think I'm going to go see Ivy for a few days....
I'm running away from my problems.
It's a fact, everyone knows it...not with Kuma-kun, but just in general.
All the shit that I'm not acknowledging.
I'm sweeping it under a metaphorical rug...
Because I'm tired of thinking about all of it.
I'll have to deal with all this eventually, but I'm avoiding the inevitable.
Normally I would just smoke pot, drink myself to death, wake up, and repeat.
What have I learned?
Being wasted all the time never fucking helps, I wake up months later like "What the fuck happened?"
Actually in some cases I've woken up years later to find myself in a worse situation than before.
Yes, I am dodging recurring problems in my own life, thank you for asking.
Realistically I'm only worried about my situation with Kuma-kun because I'm actually worried about other stuff.
I'm misplacing my anxiety....
So I should sit down with my brain and deal with all this shit, before my brain implodes.
"Your world won't change while you sleep."
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