The Scent of Nostalgia

Well, last night I was going to post something positive and happy, because I've had a wonderful couple of days.

But Mister J and my mother are just...

Also I'm moody when I'm tired.

So, um, maybe something happy now? Yes?

It was really cool to spend time with Kuma-kun and see everyone acting and all the behind the scenes stuff.

They work so hard, I was tired simply from watching everyone run around.

I have an immense amount of admiration for everyone.

We also got to go to this huge house in "the rich part of town".

It's completely ridiculous how some people live.

Unnecessary.

So many people in this country are homeless and starving, and the rest of the world?!

Women forced to go into prostitution, children begging on the streets...and wealthy people whose biggest concern is their ice cream melting.

I'm appalled.

Oh, but enough of my "bleeding heart syndrome".

Nobody ever changed anything by talking about it.

Hence the reason I almost joined the Peace Corps...

Yes, I really did almost do that.

But back to all the acting stuff...

It made me miss being on stage *laugh*

Silly me and my nostalgia.

Kuma-kun's friend said that maybe I could help write scripts.

She told me MIT puts courses online, and to ask Kuma-kun about it.

Ironic that I posted that article recently...

It's an intriguing idea.

I've never tried writing scripts, it's definitely a foreign writing format/style.

But I'd love to learn stuff about all the things they do, it seems so fun.

And I always loved hanging out with the tech people when I was in plays.

Although I was always a claustrophobic in that little room where they control the lighting and stuff...

I remember everyone always told me how fantastic my acting was, but being on stage always gave me the sensation of transforming from a caterpillar into a butterfly.

Just another something that I gave up so I could smoke weed and get drunk...and also I gave it up because my mother wouldn't support it.

Funny how she ruined everything I ever wanted to do.

Pfft...life...

I'm not resentful, I swear.

Really when I was little, acting and writing were my two greatest dreams...through my entire life.

And then I hit adulthood and decided to be practical.

So I gave up on having a creative career and decided on linguistics or physics.

Because theoretically that's so much better.

Too late to change the past though, I suppose I could still have a career in writing.

Life is quite unpredictable.