Grab A Shotgun, It's The Apocalypse

Fuck my brain...

Because all I want to do is watch Sex and The City reruns while eating chocolate.

Once a month every girl turns into a cunt, no matter how logical she normally is.

Someone is going to call me a misogynist for blaming my bad mood on PMS.

But isn't it scientifically true that women are over-emotional?

And only hermits like myself understand how difficult it is to tell another person how you're feeling.

Which is why The Jester and I didn't talk for six months that one time...

We're both reclusive introverts who couldn't figure out how to simply say "I miss you."

Or when Satan and I would fight, neither of us would say what we were actually thinking; we would just yell at each other over nothing, instead of just stating how we feel.

It always took so much courage for either of us to admit what we were really feeling or thinking.

And I'm still like this...

So that's why my friends are just as anti-social as I am, equally as stubborn too.

Kuma-kun doesn't get it, I think he's frustrated by it.

Mister J said that guys can't read me, because I come off as aloof.

But I just can't get the words out, which is why I used to write letters when I was pissed off.

I can't physically say what I'm thinking.

"Fucking shit" and other swear words is normally what comes out when I try to talk about my emotions.

I don't tell people my problems either, because who really gives a fuck?

I'd rather just deal with my own bad mood than listen to a slew of cookie-cutter advice and "if you ever need anything, honey"....(insert generic condolences)

Being in a relationship kind of makes this behaviour impossible and counterproductive.

The whole point of this is to have someone to share everything with, right?

That means good, bad, trivial, and cataclysmic...

I used to be really outgoing and open about my feelings, but after a lifetime being reprimanded for them I stopped.

I'm being irrational and unfair to Kuma-kun, it took me this long to see this shit.

But the only relationship I was ever serious about was with a person who is exactly the same way that I am.

This whole communication thing is brand new, I understand it in theory...in execution, not so much.

It's all fine to say "I need to be more honest with my significant other," but when I try to...my brain shuts down.

Then I start resorting to old habits, which have done nothing but screw me over.

I really love Kuma-kun, with my entire soul.

But changing a lifetime worth of learned traits doesn't happen overnight.