The Infamous Bunny Strikes Back

Today was odd.

I guess, being high was never my strong suit.

I'm not really "high"

More buzzed with one of those crappy resin headaches.

Just enough smoke to take the edge off of my insomnia induced short-tempered-ness.

I miss the taste of weed though...

I guess once you get attached to the whole ritual of smoking, you kinda always love the feeling.

Weird that smoke in my lungs feels almost as good as the breeze from the ocean.

Tonight I talked to Alley Cat about her wedding, and The Jester about....whatever it is we actually talk about.

Farting and psychology.

I'm kidding, my friends and I don't have something called boundaries.

But I've talked to most of them while I was peeing...

So I guess boundaries would be unheard of after all these years of being in bathrooms together.

And we've all seen each other's underwear and asses.

I don't know why things like farting would be a big deal...

Because it's not at all a big deal.

Nights like this make me say, "fuck the past."

We're here now, aren't we?

Maybe this isn't the road that I started on, but I'm pretty sure that I'm happy.

Not just because I'm buzzed, but I honestly looked around my world today and realized that everything is alright.

I'm going to move, and get my license...

I have a wonderful boyfriend, whom I love a lot.

My friends could come around and be a little less insane in the future.

And for the first time in many years, I'm not fighting with my mother.

I just should wake up and get out of bed every morning.

Because eventually everything changes...

And I want to have sex right now, but I've decided to be good for once.

It's finally important.

I mean, the way it happens and who it's with is important...for the first time it matters.

So I'm going to wait, because advice and statistics tell me that I should.

My intuition agrees anyway...

Being nervous around a guy is a new feeling, also the territorial feeling is new.

So this is what girls go through...

It's awful.

Worth it though...absolutely worth all the new feelings.

It's likely I'll learn to deal with all this stuff anyway.

It was definitely easier when I instantly knew that I could get and keep any guy, and I didn't care about it anyway.

But how empty an existence.

This is much better...a new challenge and experience.

I'm having fun, and I'm quite happy to be so in love with someone who is so absolutely perfect.

We all have flaws, but we're pretty perfect together.

And I would love him even if we weren't, because I fell into it accidentally.

The universe did this before I could stop it, so it's meant to happen.

I'm just rambling about someone who is stuck in my head...

Mister J called The Jester just so I would stop talking about Kuma-kun.

Too bad The Jester listened to an entire hour of it anyway.

Everyone is teasing me, how did this even happen?

I don't know...

But this has been enough for tonight.

Goodnight.