"The magicians underwear has just been found in a cardboard suitcase floating in a stagnant pond on the outskirts of Miami. However significant that discovery may be...and there is the possibility that it could alter the destiny of each and every one of us...it is not the incident with which to begin this report."
-Another Roadside Attraction; Tom Robbins
It's from The King in Yellow, don't you love my underground macabre taste in literature?
I'd rather be a pastel alpaca than a rainbow sheep...
I finally realized that I don't have to be a sheep at all, I can break all the barriers entirely.
My life is completely my own and it doesn't need to resemble anything even remotely conventional.
Sometimes I feel as if I might collapse under the weight of my own life.
Ivy wants me to be her live-in babysitter...
Catwoman wants to move in with us...
And other shit that is so very wrong.
I'm dealing with one thing at a time right now, lest I get overwhelmed and actually decide to lodge a bullet in my skull.
The song of the day is I Held Her in My Arms...more Alkaline Trio, since I'm so fucking depressed.
There is the possibility that everything will turn out alright in the end.
Ivy and I could be like the girls from that one movie, Life Happens...
You have to fight for what you want in this world.
What have I learned this week?
Among other things is the realization that whether or not a person smokes weed and plays video games is not good criteria for a relationship.
No, really...
"If I'm just bad news, then you're a liar."
Don't know why that song popped into my head.
When I was sixteen and perpetually stoned that's really all I cared about, and of course the guy had to have long hair or a mohawk...because fucking metal, man!
*laugh*
Which means that I need to be around people who don't smoke weed, for once in my life I'm going to adhere to some fucking boundaries.
I can do this, I can be perfectly perfect on my own.
We'll figure everything out, because life is a shitstorm.
It never gets easier, you just have to deal with it.
"There is no such thing as a weird human being. It's just that some people require more understanding than others."
"Happiness is a learned condition. And since it is learned and self-generating, it does not depend upon external circumstances for its perpetuation."
Whenever I start a book, I read the first chapter and then the last page.
That's the way I write too, I write the beginning then the end...the middle comes last.
I'm not sure why, I know it's weird.
Just another one of my quirks.
The weather in Northern Arizona is between 50-60 degrees, which means I should definitely wear pants.
At least it's not snowing, I'm nervous to drive, Ivy wishes she could come with me.
I wish everyone would stop smoking in the house, it always reeks like stale cigarette smoke.
Speaking of which, I went back to chain smoking...
And the waitress at the diner said that bacon cheeseburgers cure the breakup blues, I don't like bacon or cheeseburgers but I have to agree.
I befriended a giant moth today.
Isn't she pretty?
I named her Luna ('cause of Luna moths in Skyrim)
Oh, anyhow, I have to pack and shit since I'm driving to Arizona tomorrow.
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