Just Get Here Eventually

Mister J always hated Satan because he reminded him of a worse version of himself when he was a teenager.

He always told me that Satan wouldn't figure out his life 'til his mid-twenties, and it's up to me if I want to wait around for that.

They think so alike though, say the same shit all the time...it's weird.

Some ex (yet another one) said that I sound lost and he thought I was "the type of girl who was a tad more in touch with my own destiny."

I'm not though...at all.

I don't know what happened.

My life is too complicated...

Poor Ivy is starting to crumble under her own bad choices.

All these guys want to date me, screw me, or both; I'm not feeling it.

I did meet one sweet guy, I'm kinda wondering what's wrong with him; there's always something wrong with them.

Catwoman keeps randomly texting me...this is probably more than she has talked to me in like a year.

It's strange, this week is totally off.

I'm flirting with some of my old flirting buddies, just enjoying it.

This one guy though...I'm a little enamored.

I'm not sure what I should be looking for, I don't know what I honestly need in my life.

Maybe that's because I'm still hurt...

The worst thing is still sleeping alone, I'm going to go find someone who hates it too.

I just need somebody to help me sleep...and possibly a different one for sex?

I'm kinda falling into old habits with this whole thing.

I got a "Good morning :)" from the cute guy I met off that site, he seems sweet.

And the guy from the sex shop is 27...

He says he normally has a cut-off for girls under 22, but "You're a cutie and seem like a sweetheart, so I'll make an exception."

Have I ever dated a guy eight years older than I am?

Yes...

Do I want to do this right now?

I'm not sure???

Although I'm not actually looking to date anyone, just looking for chill people to kick it with.

He wants to hang out tonight; is this a good idea?

Who fucking knows?

Am I over-analyzing everything?

Should I just be having fun?

It's not like I really get along with people my own age anyway...

Everyone just seems immature as fuck to me.

At this moment I just wanna wing it, have some fucking fun.

After we had the age conversation he stopped talking to me, I hope he's not put off by how young I am.

Whatever.

I changed my phone wallpaper again...

And I got Star Wars mice for my cats.

I don't wanna get up, but I have to leave in an hour...

Merlin is cuddling with his Chewbaca, it's adorable.

My cats purr when they sleep.

I'm so burnt.

I should stick with beer or some shit, like Jesus fucking Christ,

I'm so hungover, and just fuck.

I'm a fucking dipshit.

I'm swearing off hard liquor for good this time...

Lost my favorite knife, and I smell like puke.

Fuck my shit, god I'm so stupid.