Shaking Like a Shitting Dog

I guess it's a good time to write.

Where to start?

I might be moving to San Francisco or Long Beach...

It's not for certain yet.

Ivy left this morning, I have nothing to say.

You know one time she quit talking to me for three months because I tried to tell her that everyone was calling her a whore behind her back.

But she says we're best friends...she's just lonely, we're all lonely.

Southern Boy keeps saying that he misses me, it's for the same reason that Satan talks to me still....we're all just lonely.

I think it's story time.

When I moved back to San Diego from Arizona I spent hours at his house every day, crashed there all the time...there was this one night that I convinced him to go to a bonfire with me (which is funny because he hates leaving the house for anything other than food), we were standing on the beach talking (just like the night we met); he said to me, "I don't know what you're thinking, but this isn't going to happen...I mean, I don't know what will happen in the future, but....."

He was still in love with his ex, texting her every night, talking about her all the time...that was the night that I gave up on him.

We haven't hung out much since that summer, some days things are easy between us, some days they're painful...over the years we've gotten better, it's mostly irrelevant.

Except that after that summer I gave up on dating altogether, I've been out with a lot of guys since then...but I never take guys seriously.

I thought I should give someone a chance, that's how I ended up with Kuma-kun; maybe that was stupid of me.

The thing about Kuma-kun is that at the time when I got together with him I didn't realize how much I had changed.

When I was in school I would've killed to date a guy like Kuma-kun...

Because back then that's what I needed, right now I need something...someone much different.

I'm getting too attached to Fork though, it scares me.

This made me happy though;

Guess who... *laugh*

There's a lot of movies I wanna see lately...the new Sin City is coming out in August, I wish I could find someone to go see it with me...

Also a new Seth Mcfarlane movie, and a new TMNT movie are coming out soon....

I wanna see Dom Hemingway too, and maybe this one period drama that looked really good.

Oh, Mister J got me this;

Adorable, right?

I'm so bored, bleh...

Mister J said that Fork is too much of an introvert for me and thinks that he won't be able to handle the wild part of my personality.

Maybe, I guess we won't know 'til we know.

I've been craving udon lately...

I was kinda thinking about writing this long post about Sukitte Ii Ya No, maybe another time though.

I've also been getting back into metal and goth fashion recently, it's weird...I miss it though.

And goth music; Cruxshadows, Nox Arcana, Theatre of Tradgedy....forgot how much I loved all them.

This is the product of my boredom;