Goodbye, Blue Monday!

Well, Satan tried to call me again last night (to be fair I messaged him first).

I passed out before he responded...I think he's getting annoyed that I keep falling asleep before he calls.

I've just been exhausted lately, dealing with life is fucking exhausting.

For the first time in years I haven't thought about Satan regularly, which is ironic because lately we've been talking more than we have in probably over two years.

Either I really like Fork, or I'm finally getting over all this bullshit.

Bullshit meaning love...

I'll always love him, but it might be time to just cut my losses and honestly give up.

I'm well aware of how many times I've said this in the past, but this time I feel it.

Fork tried to go to sleep last night and five minutes later I get this text, "I can't sleep, I just keep thinking about you :p"

So he called me and then he said my voice is soothing, so he made me sing him a song...I was so embarrassed, I could've died.

Ivy says her husband won't let her come see me one last time before she leaves, it's her own damn fault for letting someone control her entire life for her.

Still...I can't shake the feeling that I'm probably not going to see her again, it's depressing.

Mister J doesn't know if he's gonna take the job in Alaska...I have mixed feelings about it.

It might be fun to live in my own, but since I hate being alone it'll probably be terrifying.

Fork would probably come stay with me for a bit, but that's still six months that I can't just have someone there all the time.

I slept almost twelve hours last night, but I feel like I've slept off all the craziness of the last few days.

I've been reading Sukitte Ii Na Yo lately, it's so good...ahhh, my brain is just exploding.

Fork sent me a pic from his old MySpace today, so I took a look at my old one...

Soooo, have some pictures from my goth girl days;