(He called at like 1:00am)
Then he sent me a message saying "Why u do dis? -__-"
Do what?!
I guess I'll find out when he wakes up...
I was too busy sleeping off my hangover, so I missed his call.
Today is the anniversary of Fork's daughters death, I wish I could drive up there and cuddle with him so he could sleep off his sorrow; but I'll have to do my best from over here.
Ivy is leaving on Friday, she was crying when she dropped me off...so many memories have been taking up residence in my brain lately.
I think she'll end up staying with her husband permanently, but it's her life...
We were talking about me dating, she said that I "attract the weirdos".
All the guys I've dated have been pretty weird, but it works for me.
Mister J says someday I'll find someone who honestly loves me, loves all my little quirks...maybe.
Ivy's husband got ADTR stuck in my head.
I like the way her husband drives, we were racing around the parking lot and he found one of those electric handicap scooters and was trying to do donuts....Ivy was pissed when we showed back up (we were waiting for her to finish in the store).
Now that I think about it, she was always an uptight bitch and everybody liked her because she was a hot redhead.
I love her like family though, even if we disagree on everything.
Mister J wants to take me to Disney Land for my birthday; my friends used to go all the time, but I haven't been since I was four.
I kinda wanna just be totally insane for the next month, before I'm officially no longer a teenager.
Mister J might be taking a job where he's gone for six months at a time, I'm not sure how I feel about living on my own...
And this made me think of Kuma-kun;
I don't know if you can read the print, but it says, "Please make sure you treat your girlfriend differently than everyone else. Nothing makes a girlfriend more insecure than a boyfriend who's kind to everyone."
I couldn't explain that to him when we broke up, wasn't sure how to put it eloquently.
This is very true though, which is why I like Fork so much...even if he doesn't talk to me for hours I don't really feel any insecurity, because I know he likes me and misses me when we don't talk.
Pretty much the same with Satan, he's always loved me and I've always known that.
When a guy doesn't seem like he has strong feelings for you it's harder to believe that he loves you.
Mister J said that there's few guys who honestly value their significant others, and if I ever find one who does value me on a deep emotional level I should try to keep him.
We all know it's much more likely that I end up an old cat lady in a creaky old house, alone for the rest of my days on this earth.
But I hope to have many lovers, and adventurous romances...chance encounters in smoky hotel rooms, passion and fire...short-lived is the best, because you don't have to be attached to anything or anyone.
Oh, did I mention that Fork is INTP?
So what do I have to say about finally meeting someone who is like I am?
This is scary, Ivy says that I'm trying to run because I really like him....she knows me so well.
I owe her a cake, because she was right ten times.
(Actually I think it's 14-1 now)
So I was finally right about something...
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