Once Upon a Time

I don't know....
I couldn't be more sad.
I couldn't be more at a loss for words, or for figuring out the purpose of my life.
So far I've just been along for the ride, an accessory to the whims of others.
This is where my problem lies, but really what other choice have I had?
No parents, friends consumed by their own lives, and guys concerned with their own needs.
Who in this world is honestly on my side?
Certainly not parents, friends, or guys; who does that leave?
The government?
They couldn't care less about any of the populace, especially me.
I don't really contribute to the society that I'm living in.
I'm the spawn of dysfunction, enveloped within insanity.
The past haunts me, and the future scares me....
So really what now?
What do we have left to do, but to pray.
To whichever deity or spirit suits you, to hope for a better end.
Our beginning was chaos, destruction cradling reality.
We are all born and we shall someday die, and that is the simplest thing in life.
The difficulties begin when everyone has a conflicting view of reality, so we blind ourselves to it.
But ask yourself if your perception of reality is distorted.
We view our lives in a funhouse mirror, and I doubt that you answered that question honestly.
And this is what we learn?
That we're deceitful with ourselves, as well as with the entire world around us.
I want peace for myself, I want to find honesty within myself, I want a life that I chose.......
And this is what I've learned.