This week has sucked....
I've been dumped, blamed, humiliated.....
Well, I wanted to break up, but I felt too bad about it; so I'm glad that he did it instead.
I cared about him, but we weren't a good match.
I feel like being dumped should hurt more, but I've tried so hard to numb myself to any emotional pain.
And Satan asked me for a lighter the other day; when I said I didn't have one, he replied, "You failed me, you always fail me"
He was kinda sweet to me a couple of days before that, but I don't even want to go there.
Anyway, my phone was confiscated today, because I texted my suicidal friend "happy birthday"
It was confiscated by the art teacher, for "wasting precious art class time" and apparently it was because "we've had two incidents in two days" and he was "trying to teach me a lesson"
(he almost kicked me out for talking about marijuana the other day)
I hate when authority figures do that.
And then they called my mom and told her what happened.
I was bawling my eyes out, and adults in the office had the nerve to laugh at me.
Luckily Catwoman stood up for me.....
My English teacher was helpful too.
But it still set my progress with my mom back almost two months (I'm trying to rebuild our relationship).
I just thought it was a minor injustice on the scale of injustices committed by the system.
How are we supposed to flourish in an environment that's so stifling?
To make matters worse I saw the nurse, my English teacher from Freshmen and Sophmore year, and the Principal while I was crying and standing there with my mom.
It was mortifying.
The Principal reiterated the talk we had, and my mom looked upset.
Hell, my mom was upset....it took me approximately three hours to convince her that I'm not a complete failure.
So screw all those people who think that I'm a "problem child", I know what I am and I'm not ashamed.
They can shove their pompous, sanctimonious opinions up their....well, you know.....
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