A Life Like No Other

There is this part of me that feels like I don't belong here, like I'm in over my head; when it's like that I always feel like a fake.
But other times it's like this is exactly where I belong and why wasn't I here sooner.
I think Satan played a big part in my comfort levels (or actually discomfort), because it's his scene and his crew.
When he shows up it's like everyone's attitudes towards me change....like I was cool five minutes ago, what just happened?
I keep telling myself that I don't do this shit, but it feels right.
It's like flying, this freedom from knowing the people and the places.
I wanted it all so badly, so what changed?
Maybe I grew up.....

Part 2:
Life is rad.
Actually, life is awesome....I was kinda flipping out earlier 'cause my step-dad dragged me all the way up to alpine for 3 days when I have a whole bunch of stuff to do at home, but now that I'm here I'm glad.
Family is something that I can say I have when I'm up here.
Where I can just walk in and post up on the couch, wait for grandpa to get home, chill with his biker buddies; it's nice.
I realised today that I like where I am in my life.
I like Satan's friends, I like this new boy, I like Alpine and my grandpa's house and the fact that you can see the stars up here.
I like the thought of the life that I have to look forward to :)