Silver Screens Don't Always Have A Silver Lining

What can I say?
I sometimes go visit my Math Teacher from last year.
I was in his room today and my Physics Teacher from Freshman year walked in, talking about some kid ditching class.
The Math Teacher replied something like, 'he's so smart, if we could just help him.'
The Physics Teacher leaves and I say, "It's always the smart ones"
He agreed with me and then said, "Yeah, you and your alcohol last year. We'll just call it the incident."
It's funny 'cause he was like that too in highschool, that's probably why I still visit him.
He said, "But I never got caught," he laughed.
I almost said something about depression, but I stopped myself; I left.
Me and my incidents, they play out like they should be on the Lifetime Movie Network.
If my life was a movie I'd want it to be on IFC or Sundance.
I'd want to be one of those artsy independent films.
I have issues....
A boy with green eyes once said to me, "Yeah, but you don't have trouble talking."
He thought he knew me, he still has no idea.
I'm trying....I made the first step today.
I opened up to a friend of mine.
There was this one time that I got in a fight with my mom and I was bleeding on my pink sweater, and I ran down the hall to his door.
It was around seven in the evening, I held back tears long enough for him to open the door.
He talked to me for over two hours, he gave me chocolate cake and red wine in a Disney cup.
The next day I dropped off every journal that I've had since 8th grade on his doorstep.
He never read them.
We're still close, but I've gradually lost faith in him.
Once in awhile he tells me that he wants to be with me.
If he truly does, then I wonder if he knows that this is his last chance.