Life will foreshadow itself as if it were an old novel.
My life for the last few months has been strange.
The forces of Pluto and Saturn have cleansed the world.
We begin life anew, and it is a strange one indeed.
If I told you all the events that have transpired you would chortle in disbelief.
Should I start somewhere....?
With some lost and lonely morning, waking up to a wide window overlooking The Pacific that I love so much?
I need to quit getting involved with Leos, it will be the death of me.
...I'm legal now. Yatta! It's a nice feeling, being a real, bonafide adult.
I feel manic lately.
Today, my heart is sad, and swimming in the pit of my stomach.
This day, less than an hour ago, I learned something dreadful.
And my heart bears a great sadness.
My first and only love lost someone dear to him recently, the woman who raised him.
He's now homeless, and I can offer him no comfort.
Though we are friends, I am not on favorable terms with his girlfriend.
I suppose I can understand her unease, but I am of noble intent.
I love him enough to respect the partner he chooses, and it's that simple.
So here we are....
The rest maybe couldn't be worth talking about. Lady Snow and Kuma-kun got together.
(I called her that because she has long white hair and big blue eyes).
I met her the first time junior year.....
Remember when I was dating that one guy (I've mentioned him before) in 2011, and I was hanging out with all those people?
I'm pretty sure she had pink hair then, but who knows....that was so long ago.
It almost could've been a dream, because I'm the only one who really remembers it.
I'm really stoned.....
I bought cool shit today and some of my computer parts showed up.
I'm always stoned.
Life is insane.
Mercury retrograde isn't the horrible thing that people think it is.
I have a secret.
I think engagement rings are stupid.
Yup.
Only girl in America who doesn't want one.
Traditional marriages are stupid too.
If you know me, then you knew my opinion long before you read this post.
And if you don't know why I feel this way, perhaps that should be another entry (since this one is already painfully long).
I like the Norse tradition where both partners wear simple bands as engagement rings, and when they get married the lady gets a wedding ring, normally with a small stone.
Even though diamonds are my birthstone I'll probably never own diamond jewelry, I prefer emeralds and amethysts for their arcane properties...sometimes moonstones, opals, rose quartz......
I got distracted.
The other part of my confession is that if by some bizarre stroke of luck I ended up engaged in the way of nuptial affairs...I would want my engagement ring to be a replica of the one that Keats gave to his beloved Fanny.
Because so far in this life the only two loves I've had are Satan and John Keats.
Did I ever tell the story about why I started calling him Satan?
Does it matter anymore?
*sigh*
My heart has been heavy lately.
And what else should I say about it?
Reality might as well not exist right now.
The lines between different dimensions is so blurry, we're passing through them all at this moment.
When I close my eyes, I don't exist.
The veil between worlds is dangerously thin.
This is where I leave you, wanderers.
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