Mister J said that if I grow my hair out long enough to sit on, he'll buy all my hair products for the rest of forever.
I'm all over the place today.
Honestly, lately I just feel really weird.
Like I've gotten over literally everything.
At the same time I feel a weird sense of nostalgia about the past....like loneliness, but not even that.
It's almost longing for a state of being, I guess.
And on top of all that I feel super hyper and more like myself than I have in an extremely long time.
Yet I still feel overwhelmed, slightly depressed, super frustrated.
I'm just a big ball of nerves and contradictions.
Maybe this is simply me finding myself again.
Also it could be the whole genuinely being single and not having any interest in that sort of thing, 'cause I haven't felt like that in over a year...
Actually this is kinda where I was before Kuma-kun, but more in the space before the vulnerability that made me think that having a relationship with anyone would be a good idea.
But if you think about it I've spent almost this entire year chasing guys....
Kuma-kun, Satan, Leo, various other rebound/casual dates.
Probably why I'm so hestitant to get involved with this cute boy who showed back up in my life, or why I get so uncomfortable when The Jester brings up the possibility of us dating in the future (his dad and dad's boyfriend keep mentioning it apparently).
I need to be alone right now, and for now I'm kinda happy like that.
My nails are a really pretty shade of purple.
I started reading the Dark Elf Trilogy yesterday, because Menzoberranzan feels like a better place than SoCal at the moment.
I should go heat up some curry, because I'm starving; but I'm too damn lazy.
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