The Road to Nowhere

The Unfinished Tales of Henwen, The Dwarf Bun; Conquerer of Worlds.

*obsessed*

Bunnies make amazing friends...

Leo is wonderful.

I took him to a bonfire with Mister J's friends the other night, and we went to the street fair the next day, and it was all lovely.

Everything is lovely, I'm the happiest kitten in the world.

Mister J genuinely likes him, first time he's ever liked anyone...ever.

And I adore his parents!

He didn't want me to leave last time, it was so sweet.

So adorable, I can't even handle it.

Leo darling, wants to take me to meet his BDSM/Spiritual family.

I'm nervous and excited...what if they don't like me?!

Or what if they're really awesome?!

I'm just so anxious!

*sad bun*

And his birthday is next week, but I'm not 21 so I can't celebrate with him...because he's probably going to a bar.

Why are all my friends so old?

Why is something like the legality of alcohol consumption based on a stupid fucking number?

Giving In

"Mister Gepetto, 

I hope this finds you well, I wrote this letter because they miss you here in Hell."

Does anyone even know when I last updated???

Everything is so sporadic lately.

I know a cute guy, with long hair, a rad beard, and a lightsaber tattooed on his finger.

The problem with knowing a cute, intelligent guy; actually liking him.

It's the perfect time to blog, I'm finally awake and I've had my "morning" bowl.

Song of The Day: Ungrateful- Streetlight Manifesto, The Hands That Thieve

So I'm a little *cough* obsessed with Toh Kay.

I spent a couple days with Leo, smoking bowls and watching movies in our pajamas.

*laugh*

He's adorable, and I kinda *cough* really like him....I don't know how this happened, haha.

Mister J really likes him, he said that Leo reminds him of himself when he was young.

(Dropkick Murphys, yeah?)

Now that he and I are getting to know each other, I enjoy spending time with him, learning to understand him better, learn his soul...

It's interesting, a connection with depth.

Not much else has been going on (that's a downright lie).

Hiro-kun?

Why the fuck did he tell me that he loved me?

Oi...terrible.

I'm tired.....and my memory is going.....going.......gone.

Catwoman asked me to do something this weekend, I can't remember what it was...or if it was even her that asked me.

Always chasing the one guy who could give a fuck less...that's me.

It happens, shit happens; I guess.

But I'm pretty sure that this time it's worth it, because it feels different somehow.

And nothing is ever fun unless it's a challenge.

Besides people have to earn my loyalty, it's not something I give freely.

"I don't care if you care, or if you understand. I got me, and that's all I need. I live comfortably, and I sleep peacefully. I got no cash!"

Fucking Rainbow Sheep

Being here and hearing this song...

It's enough to bring tears to my eyes.

Yesterday was awful.

My life is crazy right now, it's a mess.

So long since I've been here this early in the morning.

Lately I've been filled with nostalgia, because sometimes the past repeats itself.

And sometimes it comes to meet you at the crux where it lives in harmony with the future.

This is where I am.

I'm befriending the past *laugh*

Becoming something akin to what I once was.

What I choose to do in this moment will affect everything else that happens from here.

Where do I even fucking start???

So much is going on right now...

Did I mention that I became friends with the guy Ivy was sleeping with, she was really mad about it, he and I went to the movies, Ivy and I quit talking for a few days, but now everything seems okay.

Let's call him Hiro-kun (for reasons)....

The day before yesterday I went down to OB, met a cute guy who played guitar, he played me my favorite song but messed up the words really bad, it was still nice.

Then I saw this one girl I haven't seen in forever, she's homeless so I ended up hanging out with all the homeless kids most of the day, I really like them because they welcomed me into their family, and they share everything they have even if it's not much, they've got your back even if you're fucked up, we drank beer and smoked on the cliffs, found this one dog's owner (his name was Atticus, pit and lab mix, he was a sweetie)....

Yeah, it was really fun.

Then I had sushi with Hiro-kun and went to his cousin's house (she used to be one of my friends in school, it was nice to see her, she's still really awesome).

We ended up going to the taco shop really late at night and having a My Little Pony marathon.

We spent the night there...

Yesterday I went to Dave 'n Busters with Catwoman, Hiro-kun and one of his friends (the guy I got my poly-sci book from Junior year, he's actually a really cool person even though we never hung out before).

I failed at DDR and Guitar Hero, then we played this 3D horror game and I couldn't quit screaming, Hiro-kun won 1,000 tickets on this one game, and he got me a little Hello Kitty plush (she's wearing a sailor suit).

One of our old friends from school works there, the first thing he asked me is if I had a boyfriend and he kept flirting with me (I used to flirt with him all the time though), he said he could get me a job there.

After all that we went back to Hiro-kun's friend's house, drank and played card games.

And yeah....that's all so far.

(Well, pretty much).

I'm supposed to hang out with Leo today....

The Current State of Affairs (in my life).

It's a serious effort not being high all the time...

Did I mention that I sprained my ankle on the cliffs last week?

It still hurts *sad kitten*

So quick recap of last week???

Yup, that just about sums it up...

But really, I spent lots of time with Catwoman, Lilith, Kingpin, and Jesus.

It was lovely.

Although falling while I was on the cliffs with Jesus wasn't fun....but he's a sweetheart, despite being a little full of himself.

He's cute, and I enjoy hanging out with him.

Actually he's honestly adorable....

We get along well, and we talk a lot.

It's kinda nice...

So here's Catwoman, Lilith, and company.

And my first "peeing selfie" (it's a thing).

That's everything, I guess...

Catwoman said that if we keep hanging out we'll probably be close like we were before.

Secretly I missed her....

Okay, anyway, my phone is dying so I'll be sentimental later.

Btw I'm changing Jesus' name to Leo (ironically enough).

It's ironic because he's a Cancer, and Satan is a Leo.

{Look, I explained stuff! Yay!}

And here's a picture of Lilith and I at the Ska show.

Faster Through The Intersection

Song of the day: 

    "Woe is me, I swear that we had it but everyone wouldn't agree

That we never had a thing

Our dying words will be exaggerations

Of what we said and what we did

The ticking of the clock

Eventually it stops

Oh me oh my

Goodness gracious what a lie

Where everyone's running around like they don’t have a clue

What they will do

Now that it’s through

And the ending is in sight

Oh my goodness me oh my

It's late and it's time to say goodnight

Oh my goodness me oh my

Our disease

Though feasibly easily curable I will agree that it’s not something we overfeed

The truth will be told

The lies will unfold

And anything anyone ever ignored will come back up to settle old scores

The writings on the wall

Says eventually we fall

And even Romans know

That everything (everything) everything (everything) goes"

Band of the week: Spitvalves.

Because I've been really into music lately, probably to blame The Jester.

But like, the entire Keaseby Nights album...and Toh Kay's acoustic rendition of A Moment of Silence.

Just, 'Oh, my lord in Heaven!'

I'm not sure if I ever mentioned that I've always been in love with The Toasters, and Less Than Jake...

My love for punk is old, I've always been a punk rock girl.

The Bad Brains, Minor Threat, Black Flag, Poison Idea, MDC, SSDecontrol, Battalion of Saints, Flipper, 7 Seconds, Circle Jerks, The Germs...I could go on, the movement was huge in the early 80s.

"I'm turning into someone that I never thought I'd have to be again."

Lately I've been all over the place, but I finally came home.

I think my brain is fried.

"Melting and evaporating out my ears..."

So, it's weird that Kuma-kun and Satan are just memories.

And that's how my first two loves ended.

And this is who I am now...

Mister J said that if he was a girl he would want to be like me.

*laugh*

I was on a little crew boat in the harbor yesterday.

When sunlight hits the water in precisely the right way it looks as if emeralds are dancing upon the surface.

It's so peaceful out on the water, and I love the way it smells.

Yes, that's a duck on Mister J's face.

That is all.

Random Rantings

I'm not sixteen anymore and maybe that's the problem, I'm attached to a lifestyle which I'm naturally trying to grow out of.

I leave, but then I get homesick.

When I return I become disillusioned with this city, some nights the city lights nauseate me.

And then there's the days where I close my eyes and find myself walking in the sand.

I'm between wanderlust and homesickness....between a tumultuous past and an uncertain future.

Hangovers and headaches aside, I'm perplexed by the way my path in life has become another cliché "fork in the road".

My existence is branching off in so many different directions, I'm not at all sure how I'll come out of this.

So this happened today...

Killing Time

Well, right now, I'm sitting in the crystal shop...

And last night was weird, but I'll talk about that later.

Catwoman said that people are so busy that they never take time to look up at the sky.

Is that true?

I can't fathom living a life where I never gaze up at the clouds, the canopy of branches, the stars....

Could it be possible that we live in a world where it isn't commonplace to see what the sky looks like?

Jesus is an ENFJ *sigh*

There's traits of his that remind me too much of Kuma-kun, it vexes me.

Of course I'm spending the day with someone who doesn't care if he's with me or someone else...he seems a little self-absorbed.

But that word has been used to describe me countless times.

I told him everyone hated me in highschool, he responded with "I remember the rumours."

He spent all of last night telling me how in the past he could've he had anyone he wanted, so you're only interested in me because you no longer have that ability.

I had a bonfire with Catwoman and Whatshisname last night, we were drinking and it was lovely.

He's changed and I kinda like him...he held my hand, only kissed me when I initiated it, he even let me keep his hat.

"Give it back to me when I come back," he said.

Because he's leaving to travel the world, because he has a steady job, because he's responsible...and I don't even know if he's coming back at all.

I've kissed two different guys this week, I never really change.

And this is where the energy shift landed us.

What now?

Where do we go from here?

What does the future hold for the lost souls, kindred spirits of the sea?

The Legend of Miss Bunny Bombshell Lives On

This week has passed in a stupor...

I'm at IHOP right now, the ska show last night was rad.

I accidentally kicked my friend in the face, but everyone high-fived me because apparently he deserved it.

Everyone was telling the story all night, a lot of people were gonna tell him off for different shit before I kicked him....he's kinda obnoxious when he's drunk, so I guess it makes sense.

After that all the girls were beating him up.

Everyone got hit in the face with an inflatable beach ball, but then Kingpin knocked it over the fence...twice.

This one girl got really drunk and tried to do a cartwheel, fell over, and started the pit.

Some greaser taught me how to mosh/slam dance...

I met some cool people, it was fun.

Most people dipped after the cops showed up though.

The guitar player for the last band was wearing a Darth Vader helmet.

Um, I went to Old Town and walked around...

Went to my favorite place; the Waley House, it was featured on America's Most Haunted.

I like the way it smells in there though.

And I felt a spirit at one of the old casas.

Also, the Victorian village at Heritage Park...

And I learned about the Mormon Battalion.....

Then I went to a bonfire with Catwoman and a bunch of people (one of which needs a name for this blog).

Let's call her Lilith, because she's kinda a quintessential goth kid.

She's not actually goth, but her hobby is taxidermy....she watches horror movies, has blue hair, piercings, tattoos, and always wears black.

But she's hella rad.

The next day I hung out with The Jester, we went to the comic store, the game store has Morrowind GOTY Edition, we smoked in the nature preserve, and I kept seeing people that I knew in highschool all day.

I was gonna go see Satan while I was down here, but I don't think we're meant to see each other.

Last night we smoked with Jesus and that one girl (the girl who was fucking Satan, who apparently dated Jesus).

Wow, right?

She's a little ditzy, but pretty chill.

Catwoman asked me if I was weirded out that they dated...actually I'm not.

They give off the vibe of being siblings or close friends.

He is one of those guys who's nice to everyone.

But I'm pretty sure he likes me, he said his mom likes me more than anyone he's ever brought over to his house, and we still have this crazy connection where he reads my fucking mind all the time.

And I've found that I like myself better these days honestly.....

I've found that being myself is just fine when it comes to hanging out with people.

So I'll write more later, I suppose...I'm going to the free museums today with Catwoman, Kingpin, and Lilith.

And lastly have some pictures of Catwoman's hamster in a tea saucer, The Jester, my totally awesome temporary tattoo, and fireworks.

And we set the sand on fire...