It's three in the morning, and all I seem to do is make dumb decisions.
The past brings tears to my eyes as I recall every excruciating second of my former life.
What is wrong with me?
And why don't I have anyone who will stay up with me?
I used to have that, people who would stay up all night just to talk to me.
I'm not that important anymore, I've sunk into someplace awful.
This is so dreadful, I just want to go back to my fantasy land and speak with the girl that I used to be.
I want to tell her that even though she knows that her world is at its end, that she should enjoy these last few moments of golden sunshine.
Despite the chaos she should have enjoyed it, sometimes she did.
What have I done by coming to this place?
By getting involved in another stupid relationship....my heart is caving in on itself, yet again the past is causing me nothing but pain.
Why does it hurt this much, why won't it stop?
I feel so bizarre sometimes....and I feel like I deserve better sometimes, and sometimes I feel like I don't deserve anything at all.
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