I hate my life sometimes....when I have the misfortune of going to vegas with a narcissistic friend and her crazy family.
Or when she accidentally deletes every single message from my boyfriend off my phone, or when every single person that I know seems to be driving me crazy....
Saturday, March 31, 2012
Monday, March 26, 2012
March, 26, 2012
I've lost my beauty too, and I seem to fall into a role I have never played....it's a bizarre occurrence in my world that everything wouldn't work out for me.
Vegas would be more fun with stilletos and a fake ID, instead of my more attractive friend and her uptight parents....
If I was with Catwoman it wouldn't be this way. I wouldn't be a third wheel with a headache, I choke on my own words sometimes.
And I realize that I should have said no and stayed home.
Maybe not....
Maybe an unexpected turn of events could make it worth it even for a short amount of time.
Vegas would be more fun with stilletos and a fake ID, instead of my more attractive friend and her uptight parents....
If I was with Catwoman it wouldn't be this way. I wouldn't be a third wheel with a headache, I choke on my own words sometimes.
And I realize that I should have said no and stayed home.
Maybe not....
Maybe an unexpected turn of events could make it worth it even for a short amount of time.
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
March, 21, 2012
I've lost so much between then and now, all I really want is everything that I once had....
Not only have I lost material belongings, but I've lost friends, and the person that I used to be.
I feel like I've died and gone to hell, and I wake up every morning to my own personal living nightmare.
I don't know how anyone is happy in this world, it seems like everyone has their problems.
This is really a great time to have a mental collapse; yes, sarcasm is necessary....
Well, goodnight, I guess.
Goodbye.
Once upon a time I hated that word.
I still hate that word, but I'll say goodbye to the past and I'll mourn everything that has been lost with the decay of time.
Not only have I lost material belongings, but I've lost friends, and the person that I used to be.
I feel like I've died and gone to hell, and I wake up every morning to my own personal living nightmare.
I don't know how anyone is happy in this world, it seems like everyone has their problems.
This is really a great time to have a mental collapse; yes, sarcasm is necessary....
Well, goodnight, I guess.
Goodbye.
Once upon a time I hated that word.
I still hate that word, but I'll say goodbye to the past and I'll mourn everything that has been lost with the decay of time.
Sunday, March 18, 2012
March, 18, 2012
It's three in the morning, and all I seem to do is make dumb decisions.
The past brings tears to my eyes as I recall every excruciating second of my former life.
What is wrong with me?
And why don't I have anyone who will stay up with me?
I used to have that, people who would stay up all night just to talk to me.
I'm not that important anymore, I've sunk into someplace awful.
This is so dreadful, I just want to go back to my fantasy land and speak with the girl that I used to be.
I want to tell her that even though she knows that her world is at its end, that she should enjoy these last few moments of golden sunshine.
Despite the chaos she should have enjoyed it, sometimes she did.
What have I done by coming to this place?
By getting involved in another stupid relationship....my heart is caving in on itself, yet again the past is causing me nothing but pain.
Why does it hurt this much, why won't it stop?
I feel so bizarre sometimes....and I feel like I deserve better sometimes, and sometimes I feel like I don't deserve anything at all.
The past brings tears to my eyes as I recall every excruciating second of my former life.
What is wrong with me?
And why don't I have anyone who will stay up with me?
I used to have that, people who would stay up all night just to talk to me.
I'm not that important anymore, I've sunk into someplace awful.
This is so dreadful, I just want to go back to my fantasy land and speak with the girl that I used to be.
I want to tell her that even though she knows that her world is at its end, that she should enjoy these last few moments of golden sunshine.
Despite the chaos she should have enjoyed it, sometimes she did.
What have I done by coming to this place?
By getting involved in another stupid relationship....my heart is caving in on itself, yet again the past is causing me nothing but pain.
Why does it hurt this much, why won't it stop?
I feel so bizarre sometimes....and I feel like I deserve better sometimes, and sometimes I feel like I don't deserve anything at all.
Friday, March 9, 2012
March, 9, 2012
Well, I should probably recount my exploits in San Diego last weekend, but I'm too lazy.
So instead I'll talk about the date that I have later and about the chill girl that I just met, who I'm totally gonna party with.
But yeah, I guess this place is getting better.
Me? I'm six feet deep in my own lies and emotional turmoil, thanks for asking though.
And in california the only thing that a girl needs to get a guy is good connections for weed, the ability to hold her liquor, the ability to kick someone's ass, and an extensive knowledge of cars, video games, comic books, and movies.
Here I just can't seem to figure it out, it's crazy.
So instead I'll talk about the date that I have later and about the chill girl that I just met, who I'm totally gonna party with.
But yeah, I guess this place is getting better.
Me? I'm six feet deep in my own lies and emotional turmoil, thanks for asking though.
And in california the only thing that a girl needs to get a guy is good connections for weed, the ability to hold her liquor, the ability to kick someone's ass, and an extensive knowledge of cars, video games, comic books, and movies.
Here I just can't seem to figure it out, it's crazy.
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