Mental Disorders

"For example, depressed people behave in negative ways toward their room mates, thus causing these room mates to reject them." -Wikipedia
Self-Verification Theory.
I think that this is true of Satan, infact I wrote something similar to this statement about him years ago.
It's funny how I'm usually dead-on when it comes to people.
Kitty had a similar problem with her Confirmation Bias, she'd always do something similar to fishing for compliments; but it was really her attempt at getting people to confirm what she believes about herself.
This was a product of her self-proclaimed low self-esteem.
She directs the bias towards me too, claiming that she knows me so well that anything I say about myself is immediately wrong.
My mother is like this too, anything you say about the world is wrong unless it agrees with her opinions on the world.
It's so bad that it could be considered delusionary.
I'm also convinced that she has Anxiety Neurosis, but I'm not a doctor (just a teenager with an internet connection and nothing better to do, other than homework).
I believe that most people have something that could technically be considered a mental disorder, just some people are better at hiding it.
I suffer from Nihilistic Delusions and Depressive Neurosis (it really seems that way).

Melancholia

"Ego strengths [in Freudian psychology] include the capacities to control oral, sexual, and destructive impulses; to tolerate painful affects without falling apart; and to prevent the eruption into consciousness of bizarre symbolic fantasy." -Wikipedia
Um, I think I have objects relations problems....
You know what's scary?
I have all the symptoms of Schizophrenia and most of the symptoms of Bipolar Disorder.
So I have some form of Psychosis or a Manic-Depressive Illness......
That would explain a lot.
Isn't it said that crazy people don't know that they're crazy?
So maybe I'm safe.
I can't pretend that things haven't changed, that after Friday everything is going to remain stagnant.
My Nightmare Before Christmas calendar is still stuck on March, hanging behind the door on my wall.
And although nothing astounding happened on Friday, I can believe that things will be tense and uncomfortable in art class (though I can't say I've learned much about actual art in that class anyway).
I can't pretend that I didn't learn something valuable within my fiasco in the school office, I felt like I was getting suspended again.
All this for getting my phone taken away, for a mostly illegitimate reason.
But there is something to be said about losing to the system, you simply must be that much smarter.
So I must be more cunning, skillful, manipulative.....
You will either always lose to the system or you will outsmart it.
There ceases to be any other options, because they want the smart ones on their side.
They are brainwashing us to achieve that, and I won't play into it this time.
And never again will I ever answer to anyone, so it begins.