I Hope This Is Goodbye

*yawn*
I am so very tired, my computer wiped the software on my phone...
But I guess that's okay, I suppose you shouldn't really worry about things like that.
I'm still reading Brave New World, and it reminds me of Biology Class (babies in test tubes)
We really aren't that far from that kind of technology, or that kind of consumer-driven society, which is kind of scary.
I have to talk about morality for a quick minute, just because.....
Who decides what is morally correct in society, what if the entire world was topsy turvy and it was okay to walk around naked, or have sex with random people, or if drugs were acceptable and commonplace?
Just think about it, honestly.
So why are you living your life based on other people's perceptions of right and wrong?
Another thing I feel the need to address is pessimism and depression in teenagers....
I don't understand why so many of my peers are so very depressed, it's as if they're clinging helplessly to a past that can only hurt them. I'm not one to talk, but we should all learn how to move on.
I remember the last day of my Freshman year I was sitting on the grass, down the street from the Junior Highschool, and I was writing poetry about the word "Goodbye".
Kitty told a boy with green eyes that goodbye is my least favorite word in the English language, this is still true.
A lot of things happened that year, and a lot of things have happened since that day; I'm approaching the end of my Junior year with a massive sense of nostalgia, because I miss those days Freshman year. I miss a lot of things in my past. I miss Middle School, I miss the way my mom used to be, I miss my grandmother.....
I haven't even been to my grandmother's grave; she raised me, she was the only person who ever understood me, and I miss her most of all.
I miss the dad that I never had, the childhood that I never experienced, and all the opportunities that flew by.
I feel old and already jaded at sixteen, seventeen on April 29, 9:48 AM.....

Books to Read This Year

Kurt Vonegut
Nabokov
Catch 22
Barbara Kingsloyer
Fight Club
Carraway
Dickens (which I have sadly never read)
Things They Carried
Malcolm Gladwell
Bird By Bird
On The Road
Through The Looking Glass (which I have also sadly never read)
Nickel and Dimed
Scar Tissue
No Country For Old Men
Hemmingway (another that I really should read).....
And I am currently reading Brave New World- Aldous Huxley, and I will be posting more on that when I get farther through the book